sry i didnt write in this yesterday i had a party with kait, nikkie and robin and it was off the hizzouse well.... ne way we went to a reasturant and had some osm laughs wow man i was hyper lol then we went to go see the ring two which was good then we came back to my house it was a fun nite wow ili gurrls then ne way in the mornin me and nikkie had a softball game and we crushed the other team in the last inning damn it was good im soo friken happy rite now cuz kait sed alison and michelle saw ryan and asked him if he was gonna say yes and he sed ya woo**woo  umm yah then today i had a buncha family come over kinda boring tho soo i went out and played catch in the yard with ashleys boyfriend josh well ne way im out peazzzz......

I LOVE RYAN SOOO DAMN MUCH!!

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wishin

wow i just fucken wish he knew how much i loved him hes my life everyones telling me to move on and hes not worth it but i think he is hes the best thing that ever happened to me and i would trade ne thing just to spend one more day knowin that i was his.... i cant stop crying i feel so depressed lately and really theres only way to stop it as much as i dont wanna do it im considering it  because i cant seem to see myself moving on its been 2 friken months and i no to some ppl thats not long but to me it is... i mean ive never liked someone fer that long it just amazes me.... i just wish there was one way fer me to be happy and make him happy to because i dont want him going out with me if he doesnt wanna but i really just dunno ne more i really dont.... i feel like crap and on top of that all of my close friends are all getting into fites and everyone is now getting mad at me fer starting to hangout with christine and courtney but i have soo much fun with them i mean all i want is to hangout with the ppl i want but ppl just dont seem to understand my point of view i just am trying to make everyone else happy and im not thinking of how to make myself happy..... i wanna give up soo damn bad no one even knows how much or wut i even do to myself...

♥ u dont know wut u do to me....

fer the ppl who wanted to know i did *try* it but it didnt work..